new insight

Sometimes we must leave the routine to gather up new insight. I asked the Universe recently for more abundance in the form of cash flow and needs met and I have been receiving it in various striking ways...for one i have been very negative about my own shabby looking wardrobe and unsatisfied with attempts to "improve my wardrobe" through shopping at conventional store (as opposed to my favorite...thrift shopping) I found that, having gained some weight over the years. I swore that "Nothing Was Pretty" for large women, and I balked at the phenom, as I tried to find pretty blouses, nice jeans, curvy dresses. I must say it was far more a struggle to find adequate clothing, than to get off the chair or sofa. I am not one prone to inactivity, yet computer activity has given me more rotundity, yes you might call it a more voluptuous swagger.

I vowed to get off the computer more and yes, I did it fairly well, to my own bulgy chagrin. Yet it seems one cannot vow to write more and not to sit *here* much at all. So leaving the chair has won and well,  then I just didn't make time to write here. It looks like I picked up yet another reader...oh wow...NOW the quilt-monster may multiply...haha! Two of you now, oh dear! I will come by and write I assure you. Thank you for coming by...i will vow once again to sit here a bit more, and my figure is not going to change much if I come here to write a little. So, having said that, I think it can work with my vows~ for now.

I have to say that begging for some abundance has worked out and I am now busy trying to buy my first home, as caused by a few quirky changes in my recent monopoly over some cash flow. Which  I believe,  may be a result of my opening to more abundance, on some level. If not a cause of actual Divine intervention. I'd really like to think it's  a bit of both, that the universal dynamic of Love and I are working together to the benefit of all concerned...myself especially.

One of the things that transpired to add to my personal transformation of late, is that my current landlords Victor and Hilda have lost the home I live in to foreclosure. Now I really care for them, I do, and really feel sad that they have lost this place in these hard times. It was their first American home, which was purchased by them with great pride once. Yet they are doing alright, basically, and having purchased a new home themselves recently, they are moving forward in very many ways. Therefore I reassure myself
 that all will be well for all of us. They're losing this house, may help me to gain my own.

I will be able to save up months and months of *potential* free rent. And somewhat high rent,  here in Southern Californai~a, which I will now be able to save to put toward a place of my own in this "down market". Meeting their realtor, who wanted to sell this place to me, didn't hurt either. She was about to approve me to buy the house from them, and i thought once that i was interested in it. Before the shootings ever so close by...but what that means to me is, that although I don't wish to buy this place any longer, I was being approved to buy a House...period, and FiNaLLy!  Hilda & Victor are very happy for me, despite their losing this place, and they wanted very much for me to be able to buy something of my own (we have bonded a little) and for me to be able to pay less than rent, and eventually own my own place. For me it would be an investment to buy here. Properties that sold for two and three-hundred-thousand can be found around here for seventy and one-hundred thousand right now,  so I am all in, if it can be done, I am gonna do it.

So...that is where the home shopping began...and now, I walked into a thrift shop recently to find...about twenty pretty blouses in MY size...someone fabulous sent their large but GORGEOUS clothing to my local thrift shop. Oh MY GooDNess...believe me I was beyond delighted to see (1) They do make pretty things for bigger gals. (2) I could all of a sudden afford to buy the new wardrobe I was walking through that store with loaded up on my arms. I could afford to buy it because I didn't need to pay the rent, this month, and I can juggle the funds, to make this happen, and still save the rent money by putting money back in next month. I just gave myself a loan, mentally. I will make up for it this coming month, not splurging on anything else for awhile. Seems every couple of months I do a little splurging on something, so, this coming month I'll just put the money back into savings.

I applied the same standard, loaning (saved rent money) "to myself" on future funds coming in, to get my daughter into the swimming & gymnastics classes that we have been wanting for her too, so, everything is coming up roses. This abundance stuff actually works. Now I will not have to put off her classes for later, I may pay it back incrementally over a couple of months time. I like paying bills, so, just another bill to pay...and that works for me. My next FUN thing to do, is to meet a group of new friends from my Spiritual Center ( a kinda New Age / Science of Mind church) to go downtown to meet with the author Don Miguel Ruiz, who wrote The Four Agreements and learn about "The Five Agreements" for only 16.50 and we will lunch together afterward. I never do things like this, and it feels really freeing. Once I would just say to myself "I can't really afford it". Now I am thinkin' that I can't afford to miss it, things are just going to good to mess with this flow. Well...thats how things are going for now. I am welcoming more goodness and I like it.